The subtle art of not giving a fuck

Please excuse my vulgar language this one time

I don't know about other people, but I've always been an overly sensitive soul. I tend to overanalyse every single thought, every single thing and every single meal. Is this aesthetic enough for my Instagram feed? Should I post this many pictures together in a row? Should I do this or is it best to steer clear? If I do this now, will they think I'm copying them? Or if I don't do it, will they think I'm stupid? Should I keep painting when I'm so horrible at it? What would they say? They'd think it's stupid of me to keep continuing when I suck so bad, right? Should I keep adopting new hobbies? Should I pursue this degree or another? What if people think it's not valuable? And the meaningless analysis goes on and on and it's not very easy to stop it.

I don't know precisely when it hit me but at some point, I realised that it's really not that deep. And deep down, I honestly don't care. Maybe I'm deprived of attention in real life, so I crave it in other ways but also, I know that the mutuals in my socials or most of my friends or acquaintances actually do not give the slightest fuck. And it's not about me. Most of us are too scared to try new things or become a new thing because we dwell too much on what other people have to say about it when it's actually up to us. Once you realise how to block that pathway in your head, it's easier to become nonchalant and it helps you see the world in a more objective way or in a new lens.

Nobody cares if your Instagram feed isn't aesthetic enough, or even if it is aesthetic. It's purely for you. So do it for you. Nobody cares if you go to that party, or if you wear that hideous dress, or if you write that article. Do it for you. Do it because you want to. People will always have something to say but the key to it all is to not give a fuck. People will see what they want to see, say what they want to say. It's in the nature. But why on earth would you of all people want to give random strangers that much power over you? Buy that ridiculous thing on your wish list. Book that trip. Get that degree. Write that article. Read that book. Learn new things. Get new hobbies. Work on yourself. And do not, by any chance, give a fuck.

Life's too short to give a fuck about every fucking thing. So, choose your fucks wisely. You can't care about it all and you don't have to. Pick your battles. Because maybe one day, you'll wake up and look back and realise, you could've done it all if you wanted to and nobody would've cared either way.